New One

Everyday seems new.

Like I keep waking up expecting the old and then suddenly life changes.

This is NOT a complaint. Far from it.

I like change.

Then end of this semester came quicker than expected.

Everything fell into place and suddenly I am here... in the Spring time.

Nothing to do, but rest and prep for my last semester with the school God has used to change so much of my life with.

Of course, God is always working in my life.

Here though... life is good.

Life seems simple enough.

Hard enough.

Like I said... change is due before I get too comfortable, but maybe I have already.

God, family, friends, school work... life is good.

Change is due.

Not because life is good, but because I may get to comfortable and not want to move.

I NEED to move.

For God's sake... because I love him and I want and NEED my life to be about him.

Everyday.

Every moment.

Every second.

It all needs to be for him.

He is worth living for.

Worth waking for.

Worth dreaming for and most certainly worth DOING for.

Life IS good.

Love IS good.

~K

Written: Spring 2015

Classified.

Quit classifying me.

Quit classifying me by my look.

By my hair.

By what I wear.

How I act.

How I talk.

Where I am from.

Who I am.

You don't know me inside out.

Not from here.

Not from there.

Few really know.

So quit guessing.

Making assessments.

Judge for the better, but quit acting like you know better.

Few do.

Few can see what is right for me. Right for you.

So, let it be.

Lovely. Just the way God makes us to be.

Aim for God. Aim for him.

Then see. Make suggestions with the right mind.

Right heart and right place.

Find your own beauty that way.

~Love Katie 

God Bless!!!

Sane Dream

Sane dream.

A real dream.

A dream without a catch.

Without the rest of the world on your shoulders.

Just you. Alone.

Simply you. Not disturbed.

6 days a week.

Clueless.

Not alone.

Protected.

Loved.

Cared for.

Simply astonishing.

You God.

~Love K

The No Zone

The No Zone 

The place that is easy to go to and hard to come back from.

The journey back is not impossible, but very hard.

We seem to trap ourselves in life.

Tell ourselves we can't or shouldn't.

Causing very little change to happen.

When change does happen it can be celebrated or scorned.

Either way should that stop us?

Should we really let the world tell us we can't just so we can believe their lie?

No.

Our job as Christians is to reach out of that box. Give life.

Love.

Do good. God's good. Give love.

There really is nothing better than living for God.

When you are REALLY living for God and giving it your all you get to adventure and face trials.

Learn, love, and experience.

It is personal.

Unforgettable.

Nothing like it.

We all sin.

We all make mistakes.

The point is to know that when we give it to God and let him keep it no matter how hard it is, it is COMPLETELY worth it.

Your right I don't know.

I just know what God has given to me.

Which is life.

~K

Just You and I.

It's just you and I.

Us.

No one else.

We fight together.

We walk together.

We work together.

We are friends with each other.

We have coffee in the morning.

You teach me to be better and I try my BEST to please you.

It is what I want in my life.

Love.

Your love.

Unceasing grace.

I am pleased to call you mine.

Pleased to sit with you on my way to school.

To hear your voice every morning telling me all I need to know.

I want you.

My love.

The God.

My God.

Us.

No one else.

Time to trust you more.

Give you more.

Love you more.

Thank you!!!

For it all.

God bless!!!

~Love K

What I Can Only Tell You.

I can only tell you.

Only tell YOU how I feel now.

What I am now.

Something totally between us.

God and I.

Personal.

All of us lovers... Christians is the formal name.

We experience it.

Close intimacy with the loving God.

The God who will take care of you.

King of kings and there is NO other.

That IS good.

A relationship only YOU can have with God.

~Love K

Drive-In Movies on Summer Nights

We would go on warm summer nights.

When the sky would be lit up with a million stars.

The nights would be bright and the air would be warm.

We would pack up early and plan to be there far before show time.

We always saw a double feature. Every time. Both movies or we would not go.

Some weekends we would invite others and some days it would just be us.

We would get to meet new people.

I would get to play in the big fields with kids I would never meet again.

Laugh, get hurt, get excited, and just be a kid. Be human.

Often, we would go with a cooler filled with off-brand drinks, hot dogs, and plenty of sweets.

We would eat before the show. Every kid going back to his or her own parents to have their own pick nick.

We never sat in the car. We always sat in lawn chairs near the trunk facing the screen.

Laughing and talking till the show began.

All the time in the world would seem to slow down.

It was just my family and I. Watching a movie and eating till we couldn't anymore.

If the movie turned out to be bad we would watch the stars or take a walk around to the back near where we bought tickets.

Some nights we would get a surprise rain and sit underneath the eve of the snack bar.

My memories of drive-in's are endless and still growing.

Cold nights and warm ones. A collaboration of memories.

Going to the drive-in with my family is my favorite thing to do in the summer it always has been.

It hasn't changed in all the 18 years of my life. 

I still look forward to it.

To living out of this world for just a few hours.

Under the night sky and a million stars.

~ Love K

Are you the Same? Pt.1

Are you the same?

Do you feel the way I do?

Could you possibly understand?

Am I being real about this?

How to go about this?

Are we on the same page here? 

Speaking in the same context?

Speaking in different context?

My heart, I wear on my sleeve.

Still a school girl I get that.

It's not right for me yet.

Do you understand?

Somehow I know you do.

It's ridiculous, but it's not. Just FEELS that way.

FEELS. Now that is something else.

Can I trust how I feel?

My head and heart have to work together in this.

To overcome.

Why? It is smarter that way.

We humans can make love so ugly sometimes or we can pursue it the way it is supposed to be done...

with actual LOVE.

~Love K

Written 1/23/15

Dreamer's Wish

To do.

To be.

A dreamers wish should be to do MORE than just dream, but to live. To do.

We stop ourselves WE are the ones who stop ourselves.

We have to ignore all the voices that tell us we can't and listen to God's telling us WE CAN.

We are and can be.

Live a full life. 

Filled with adventures and stories.

DREAM THEN DO!!!

Put your whole self into what you enjoy and PURSUE IT!!!

Great things will come if you pursue God.

Then, God's plan.

Keep dreaming.

Keep thinking.

KEEP doing.

May God's will be done.

~Love K

My Mind

My mind is scattered with new thoughts. New creations.

It longs to see more. To feel more.

God has suddenly opened new doors in my life. New experiences.

Doors and experiences that are scary and tempting. Ones I am not entirely sure how to deal with.

Life has become sudden and wonderful. Life IS sudden and wonderful.

It has good and bad.

My mind has become a canvas. A canvas filled with dark colors and light ones.

A canvas that can be too easily painted on or too easily tainted.

My dreams and inspirations are very real and like myself are always changing.

I am always asking God, "where am I?" and "how should I deal with this?".

He always has an answer.

He is always there to save the day.

He is always there for me to talk to. 

To be with.

God is ALWAYS there for me.

Through thick and thin.

Whether I can feel him or not.

He teaches me.

He picks me up.

He PROTECTS me.

God is always there to help me CHANGE me and my mind so that I can be a better version of me.

All our minds whether we like to think it or not can be easily tainted. 

God protects, guides, and leads us to where we need to be and what we need to see and think.

He is our shepherd and we his sheep.

Psalm 95:7 (ESV) - "For he is our God, and we are the people of his pasture, and the sheep of his hand."

~With love K

Half Mast.

Half a mast to work with.

Only half a heart to see.

Blinding ourselves to truth.

Attempting to turn away from what is real.

Reality.

Reality, though good and bad... is it really real?

Each with our own.

Holding our own.

Looking inside ourselves.

Prying our eyes awake and open.

One more step.

Then two.

Slowly turning.

Reliving.

Relearning.

Until we see the truth.

God is truth.

John 14:6 (ESV) - "Jesus said to him [Thomas], “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

(Check out more in John 14)

~Love K

Tell Me What You Think. Pt.2

Are you thinking the same as me?

Were you ever?

Is it all in my head?

That sleeve thing again.

Do you read me like a book?

I wonder what you think behind that mind of yours.

Deeper. Closer. Unintentional.

Stomp on it.

That piece of you you have to rid yourself of.

Tell it to GO AWAY.

I am done.

No.

Yes.

No.

Yes.

Time goes by and I spit it out over and over again.

The thought or mere mention.

Stuck on you and I know why.

It is almost ridiculous.

I would say no.

It didn't take me long to figure that out, but your still there lingering.

~K

Dear Humans...

Dear humans,

Please, let me in.

For I tire of my box and bread crumbs.

It is cold and I want to see what is inside that palace you call home.

I want to sit next to your roaring fires.

And eat more of that delicious meat you give me on occasion.

My dream is to curl up next to that nice, warm, giant that you call "father".

Don't get me wrong, I am happy with my warming box and towels, but I had rather be indoors with you.

Oh, won't you let me in.

I will be good though I might pee on your carpet.

I will continue to bring you yummy wildlife snacks whenever you let me out.

Please oh please let me in... oh well... I will continue to try... continue to be with you.

Until then, I will be out the door meowing in the cold.

Sincerely,

your cat.

Written by, Katie

Mom

There is not many words can possibly contain her awesomeness.

Her love for her family.

Her love for me.

Not much I can say more than thank you for waiting in every line and staying up every late night for me.

She is a superhero.

She knows that no one is perfect especially me.

She knows who she is.

She is strong.

She is a lover.

She is a believer.

She goes through everyday with love.

Giving and receiving.

Smiling and loving.

She is the gentleness I need when I feel alone and scared.

She is good at chess and is one of the smartest people I know.

She is so great.

She is my mom.

God gave her to me.

God gave her to little ole me.

He blesses me with her presence everyday.

Thanks God!!!

Thanks mom!!!

~Love Katie

God bless!!!

Fine Lines

Over time I keep telling myself things will get easier. That life will suddenly reveal all it's answers. The truth is that that will never happen and it is better that way... God's way.

God gave us a guide.

A big thick book with small lettering.

An answer to every question we need.

As I grow I realize how much more I need to cling to that book. Every word. Every letter. To cling to God and everything he tells me... everything he talks to me about is clarified between those pages.

So, why do I run from him?

Why do I sin?

Why do I want bad things?

I want them so I will learn not to run.

So, that I can learn not to sin. To want them.

God instilled want so that we can learn not to want what is bad for us, but to want what is good.

As a teenager it is hard to say I catch everything.

Our minds are running at a fast pace.

Driving our thoughts and actions to things that sometimes we don't mean.

Our goal is to give God the wheel and to drive away from those bad actions toward loving him fully. Toward the goodness that God is.

That is hard. Continuously giving God that wheel means sacrificing control which is something I am sure we will all be forced to deal with the rest of our lives.

My fine lines deal with choice.

The choice to go to the party.

To take a drink.

To do my school work.

To eat the right things.

(The good and bad... get it?)

My fine lines also deal with my reality verses my fantasy. What I think and want vs. what God wants for me. 

What I get from culture vs. what God wants from me.

I read a lot!

I watch TV a lot!

I play on my tablet a lot!

Work and play on my computer a lot!

I am sure that you are probably similar.

We all hear and see things that we shouldn't.

We think we are adult enough. Strong enough.

When the truth is garbage isn't good for you no matter what age... so stop trying to make it healthy.

Let God steer.

Let God tell you where to go.

Let him take you on adventures.

Let God help you identify what is good and bad for you.

Stop letting the world control you.

It is time to trust in the creator God.

(I have to remind myself of this everyday. His love is greater and more fulfilling than anything in this world.)

Romans 12:2 (ESV) - "Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect."

~Love K

As Time Passes

Time has passed really quickly.

Today is January 11th of the the new year 2015.

Since my last post I have graduated High School.

Passed both Trig. and Calculus 1.

And experienced my first Christmas without half my family.

Through it all I cannot tell you how BLESSED I am.

Our whole family is.

We have experienced some tough times and some great times.

Every moment, though hard, has been an adventure.

We love, we miss, and we work toward a better future.

That is all I have to say right now.

Keep moving.

Keep working.

Keep playing.

Keep resting.

Keep loving.

Keep God.

God wants you!!!

Pray lots!!!

God Bless!!!

~Love K